Wednesday, June 28, 2006


Why do we fall
for someone?

Do we fall for them
because they loved us
or because of
who they really are?

Do we fall for them
because we loved
the way they treated us
and the way
 their loving made us feel?

Or do we fall for
the person who existed,
whether we see it or not.

The person who's
who has a lot of flaws.

Monday, June 26, 2006


Tuesday afternoon and the weather was as hot as usual (but thank gawd for aircons!). I was having a late lunch with a friend and her cousin at a famous Chinese restaurant at Arcadia Senayan. It has been quite sometime since I last saw her (in person), so it was really nice to actually see her again. At least we both had something to do on our agenda that day, since we’re both officially unemployed now. LOL

Between munching on the painstakingly overpriced dumplings – we’re unemployed, remember? – and sipping tea, we talked about life in general. Catching up on each other’s news and mixed it up with a little gossip plus (unimportant) news, i.e. what’s on sale. LOL.

And somewhere along the way, we started talking about mothers.

Tuesday, June 20, 2006

Pain and Living

A few days ago I was chatting with a dear friend. And as usual, daily conversations then steered around guys, love, and the likes of it.

We’re very different, she and I. Me being the logical, analytical, critical, and (sometimes) too rational kind of mind; and her being the non-logical, emotional, and always-following-her feelings kind of mind. I often conceal my real feelings, trying to look in control and composed at all times; she’s the open book, you can tell her feelings by her actions.

That makes me, as one of my guy friends said, the ‘Ice Queen’: cold, steely, (too) calm, (too) composed, and emotion-less; thus I seem distant and hard to approach. She’s the social queen, everyone loves her warm, fun-loving, happy-go-lucky personality, spontaneity, and quirkiness.

Saturday, June 17, 2006


Lost in the middle of nowhere
In the middle of a sea of people

Tried to find an exit
but it's nowhere in sight

Tried to cry for help
but no voice came out

Tried to hold on to somebody
but no one can feel

Lost and alone
sick and tired

Will anyone find me?

Up and Away...

Restless mind, wandering soul..
flying high above the clouds
running free between the stars
wishing not to touch the earth

Fly away, runaway..
to the home of your heart
before the wind stops blowing
and you fell down to ground